Saturday, April 6, 2013


Dawn of War

It flies, a solitary black crow
Above the debris of damaged homes
Abandoned in fear and dread
Beyond the parched and barren lands
Fields untended and forsaken.



The echoes of children at play,
Of flopping cows on roads and farms
Of women preparing an evening meal,
Dogs and chickens, cats and bats,
Are now but figments of the past.

For now it is a land of death
That wails and weeps of lives unsaved
Parched from the the stream of blood that flowed
Mute to the cries and welts of battle
Numb to the scorching summer heat.

Oh yes it weeps but still it glides
As it aims at the distant single tree
To rest its wings and heal its heart
To gain its strength to guard the land
Until that seeds of freedom sprout.

(Manja, Mar. 31, 2013, Sri Lanka)

Friday, April 5, 2013


What’s on the Road Ahead[1]
(By Wilson Cadiogan)[2]

T
 hree months ago the decision was simple – well, not so simple. Starting a new life in Australia as a lowly paid factory worker with a family of five to depend on that pay, and after only 48 hours in the country was not necessarily an act of desperation. I could easily have opted for unemployment benefits, considerably higher than the factory job paid, while looking for something more appropriate to my training and experience. But I did not want to lose a moment to find out, in order to find myself in a relation to the land of OZ, whether Australia was the proud and clever country that its politicians say it is.
        
The factory, the heart and soul of the industrial religion, was my second choice as a first step in the journey ahead. I wanted a job with the garbage collection department – an almost impossible aim, being new and non-union and from the wrong part of the globe. It would have been perfect to discover the biggest former penal colony in the world through its backside.

         My decision was a conscious act of commitment to a new way of life. I am a migrant, an Oriental from a non-English-speaking background. The young fair woman at the Commonwealth Employment Office asked me if I could speak English. I said yes. She looked at my job qualifications as we talked. She was a nice person. But slowly I began to understand from her other ‘employment officer’ person, that by some weird logic of the system my extensive university studies and teaching experience were nothing, nothing more than figments of my imagination. Why? Simple, because they were obtained from a non-English-speaking background and therefore non-existent, or at most, inferior.

         She apologized. Equal employment opportunity is government policy and there is no racial discrimination in Australia. “But what can I do? That is the rule. By the way, there is a factory demand for a general hand at Kirrawee, if you are interested”. We stared at each other for a moment. We both laughed. She arranged an interview for me with the factory. I got the job on the spot.

         A master’s degree in philosophy, ten years teaching in the academy, and being 46 years old, are not exactly the right training for a factory peon. The first month was hell. But I soon became intimate with every fibre in my body and sharpened my knowledge of human anatomy. Nightly, I could name the several hundred muscles and bones in my body by the same number of aches and pains. By the second month I was fully enjoying the job.

         The factory building was a formless and ugly prefabricated structure, like all the plants sprouting like pimples around Sydney. Inside was dusty, noisy and unhealthy: freezing in winter and boiling hot in summer. The name of the game was profit, fuelled by cheap migrant labour. The company produced speakers for stereos and public sound systems.

         In two months I was a good factory hand. I could assemble the components with my eyes closed, spray paind the wooden castings, pack them into cardboard boxes and load them onto big trucks while humming ‘Waltzing Matild’ and not miss a beat.

         It was by the end of the third month that I paid more attention to what I was handling. As I worked on the assembly line I noticed disturbing signs of the state of the Australian dream. The woofers and tweeters were made in Taiwan, the amplifiers made in Hongkong, the screws and drivers made in the People’s Republic of China, and the big plant machines bore instructions in Nippongo. Only the wood and the labour were Australian. It dawned slowly on my unbelieving mind that the ‘clever’ country was a myth. Australia was going down the Argentinian road, a fetcher of water and a hewer of wood for the industrialised nations of Asia. The signs are there in that factory.

         It was Friday. It was payday, always my favourite day these last three months. I drew my pay. I walked leisurely from the factory through the main street of Kirrawee, part the ugly factories, the shops pregnant with goods, the banks and their sharp-eyed moneylenders, the bottle shop doing its usual Friday double time, the silent apartment houses, the concrete steps down to the railway station. It then occurred to me that this was the last time I would walk this familiar road. I had made up my mind that moment that there was nothing more to learn in the factory.

         The station. The train arrives. The hard seat. The train moves. I continue to ponder over my three months spent in the factory earning my daily bread and a beginning that they were also spent looking forward to its end and the start of something new. Now jobless, I grew uneasy that I have done nothing to make the new life more real. Only my walking out of the factory had reality. I felt cheated and betrayed. Three months lead to the myth and a seat on this train. Were it possible for me to fix this train on its tracks, to extend its present rails to eternity, to defy space and gravity, I would have done so. I would then stay rooted on my hard seat, close my eyes, drain my strength and passion, my mind empty as my idiotic grin, and I would stay there, timeless and unnumbered, unregistered and unknown, bothering no one and no one to bother me, travelling forever and ever between my past and my future.
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[1] Patti Miller (ed), Writing Your Life: A Journey of Discovery (1994), Allen & Unwin Pty. Ltd. Australia, pp. 120-124.
[2] Editor’s Note: Wilson C. wrote the following piece about his first job in Australia after he arrived here from the Philippines with his wife and three children. He writes with his characteristic sharp observation and skeptical, wry voice.

Monday, February 25, 2013

Getting Lost in Colombo



Galle Face

It was another one of those long weekends, so I decided to get lost in the city. I chucked my umbrella and a bottle of water into my backpack and draped my camera over my shoulders, put on my runners and went out to a cloudy Saturday morning. It rained a few minutes after I went out so I had a big use of the umbrella. My plan was to walk and find my way to the city’s Fort. Along the way, I passed Galle Face which surprisingly, despite the rain, was enlivened by a few, mostly couples, promenading or sitting in a romantic embrace on the benches along the beach, protecting their heads with umbrellas from the rains that continued to drop in trickles.  Luckily, the rain later on let up and the sun started to shine bright and hot.
Rain or shine date

In my efforts to find the fort, I ended up in naval restricted areas but was able to take some good photos along the way, retraced my steps back, discovered some buildings of European architecture and then got lost in a maze of narrow, busy side streets selling all kinds of merchandise from fruit drinks to chocolates to saris. One can get drowned in the multitude of products that one can buy here – just don't forget to try their delicious thirst quenching fruit shakes. It takes all the heat out of your body.

As I did not know where I was, I just got on a bus, dared myself to get back to my apartment using this public transport. Very luckily, I guess I got on the right bus because 10 minutes later, I saw a familiar place that I knew was just 10 minutes by walk to my place. I got off and walked the short distance, realizing that one cannot get lost in this city after all.

Sunday, February 10, 2013

What's on the Road Ahead


What’s on the Road Ahead[1]
(By Wilson Cadiogan)[2]

T
 hree months ago the decision was simple – well, not so simple. Starting a new life in Australia as a lowly paid factory worker with a family of five to depend on that pay, and after only 48 hours in the country was not necessarily an act of desperation. I could easily have opted for unemployment benefits, considerably higher than the factory job paid, while looking for something more appropriate to my training and experience. But I did not want to lose a moment to find out, in order to find myself in a relation to the land of OZ, whether Australia was the proud and clever country that its politicians say it is.
        
The factory, the heart and soul of the industrial religion, was my second choice as a first step in the journey ahead. I wanted a job with the garbage collection department – an almost impossible aim, being new and non-union and from the wrong part of the globe. It would have been perfect to discover the biggest former penal colony in the world through its backside.

         My decision was a conscious act of commitment to a new way of life. I am a migrant, an Oriental from a non-English-speaking background. The young fair woman at the Commonwealth Employment Office asked me if I could speak English. I said yes. She looked at my job qualifications as we talked. She was a nice person. But slowly I began to understand from her other ‘employment officer’ person, that by some weird logic of the system my extensive university studies and teaching experience were nothing, nothing more than figments of my imagination. Why? Simple, because they were obtained from a non-English-speaking background and therefore non-existent, or at most, inferior.

         She apologized. Equal employment opportunity is government policy and there is no racial discrimination in Australia. “But what can I do? That is the rule. By the way, there is a factory demand for a general hand at Kirrawee, if you are interested”. We stared at each other for a moment. We both laughed. She arranged an interview for me with the factory. I got the job on the spot.

         A master’s degree in philosophy, ten years teaching in the academy, and being 46 years old, are not exactly the right training for a factory peon. The first month was hell. But I soon became intimate with every fibre in my body and sharpened my knowledge of human anatomy. Nightly, I could name the several hundred muscles and bones in my body by the same number of aches and pains. By the second month I was fully enjoying the job.

         The factory building was a formless and ugly prefabricated structure, like all the plants sprouting like pimples around Sydney. Inside was dusty, noisy and unhealthy: freezing in winter and boiling hot in summer. The name of the game was profit, fuelled by cheap migrant labour. The company produced speakers for stereos and public sound systems.

         In two months I was a good factory hand. I could assemble the components with my eyes closed, spray paind the wooden castings, pack them into cardboard boxes and load them onto big trucks while humming ‘Waltzing Matild’ and not miss a beat.

         It was by the end of the third month that I paid more attention to what I was handling. As I worked on the assembly line I noticed disturbing signs of the state of the Australian dream. The woofers and tweeters were made in Taiwan, the amplifiers made in Hongkong, the screws and drivers made in the People’s Republic of China, and the big plant machines bore instructions in Nippongo. Only the wood and the labour were Australian. It dawned slowly on my unbelieving mind that the ‘clever’ country was a myth. Australia was going down the Argentinian road, a fetcher of water and a hewer of wood for the industrialised nations of Asia. The signs are there in that factory.

         It was Friday. It was payday, always my favourite day these last three months. I drew my pay. I walked leisurely from the factory through the main street of Kirrawee, part the ugly factories, the shops pregnant with goods, the banks and their sharp-eyed moneylenders, the bottle shop doing its usual Friday double time, the silent apartment houses, the concrete steps down to the railway station. It then occurred to me that this was the last time I would walk this familiar road. I had made up my mind that moment that there was nothing more to learn in the factory.

         The station. The train arrives. The hard seat. The train moves. I continue to ponder over my three months spent in the factory earning my daily bread and a beginning that they were also spent looking forward to its end and the start of something new. Now jobless, I grew uneasy that I have done nothing to make the new life more real. Only my walking out of the factory had reality. I felt cheated and betrayed. Three months lead to the myth and a seat on this train. Were it possible for me to fix this train on its tracks, to extend its present rails to eternity, to defy space and gravity, I would have done so. I would then stay rooted on my hard seat, close my eyes, drain my strength and passion, my mind empty as my idiotic grin, and I would stay there, timeless and unnumbered, unregistered and unknown, bothering no one and no one to bother me, travelling forever and ever between my past and my future.
###
          



[1] Patti Miller (ed), Writing Your Life: A Journey of Discovery (1994), Allen & Unwin Pty. Ltd. Australia, pp. 120-124.
[2] Editor’s Note: Wilson C. wrote the following piece about his first job in Australia after he arrived here from the Philippines with his wife and three children. He writes with his characteristic sharp observation and skeptical, wry voice.

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Face Off at Galle Face




It was a splendor to watch the sun set – with the sun fading into the horizon into a ball of orange, illuminating the graying sky with a bright auburn hue, and be lost in the flow of tourists and locals relishing the blissful afternoon mood.

Galle Face was an otherwise deserted strip of beach area in Colombo City when I last saw it in 2009, with military soldiers armed to the teeth manning checkpoints along the roads. That was just after the “end of the 30-year civil war”. Today, it was totally not as I remembered.

Galle Face was now teeming with families, lovers, tourists and traders. The long stretch of lawn was full with children (and adults) flying their kites, playing ball, and vendors selling colorful toys. Parents sat leisurely watching their children as lovers cuddled and whispered, or promenaded, creating a world of their own from the otherwise exultant and noisy crowd.

Along the beach, children and adults frolicked excitedly as the waves caressed the shore with big splashes of cool water. Some were ecstatic, some were frightened, and some were just dipping their feet in the water. Most of them though were dressed from head to toe.

Merchants lined the paved area with stalls and carts, selling mostly food – from ice creams to fries to meals and souvenirs. Of course, they have their famous ‘kottu’ and ‘isso vade’ (pronounced ‘isuwade’), which I certainly tried, and which I topped with a delicious ice cream and then some spiced guavas.

Thursday, January 31, 2013

A Beautiful World of Guns and Roses





Waft of burning cedar filled the air, punctured only by broken scent of trunks of pine. At last, an evening goaded by rest and peace, I embraced the full moon floating brightly above my flowing hair. I sauntered up and down the grassy hill to until feeling my feet swollen, I walked unevenly to the couture grass lawn, next only to middle-class residence that had served as my abode for three days now. “Be staying here for the next five months or so,” I said to myself. “This place should remind me of home, it is where my thoughts shall bloom,” I murmured. With a book resting between my arm and chest, I got myself into a corner, pulled out an old maybe dingy couch, then enthusiastically dropped myself like a bomb. Boom! Just like that, I have built, literally, my niche in Sri Lanka.
       
12:00 midnight. With unobstructed silence, I began poring over page upon page of this tiny crimson-covered book by Grisham. The plot was engaging, so were the words he used to describe each event. I could feel the pain and the twist, even the angular cirrhosis, of a life gone mad. Grisham is really good at picturing people. “The man is a torturer, a savage,” in whispers, I briefly described the hero who was slowly but surely turning into a villain. He represented whom I resented back, well, home.  
      
Bong! Bong! Prack! Prack! Prack! The successive volleys pulled myself back to Colombo. I know that sound! Know it very well.  It is embedded in my mind, in my life. Prackpakaprack prack prack prack! Bang Bang Bang!  It is so near, so close - I could hear the shouts of men – to my home. It is the sound of gunfire - from long firearms.  My heartbeat quickened with the sound of it. My senses intensified as they upped their ante for any sound of stray bullet. I stifled some nervous laughs at the thought of coming to a foreign country just to die. Such a paradox.  A few minutes passed. Then silence.

People have woken up. I hear shouts from the neighbors. Probably checking if everyone was okay. Well I hope everyone is okay.  I hear cars starting up. The sounds now intrude into the eerie silence after the spate of gunfire. But I take comfort in the thought that there is still life. I can still hear the world, I can feel my heartbeat, I can still breathe the air. I am supposed to be in the posh side of the city – within a stone’s throw away from the Prime Minister’s Office, the Russian Embassy, the UAE embassy and other foreign embassies. This is supposed to be a ‘peaceful’, ‘secured’ place.

Only a handful lingered to kibitz. Most have gone back to their homes, ready to resume the sleep that was rudely interrupted. But not a soul seems to want to protest what happened just moments ago. I am in Sri Lanka. Should I have expected this? Perhaps not, not here, not anywhere, not ever. My only wish – whatever happens – bring me home.

“Pero es bello amar al mundo
Con los ojos
De los que no han nacido todavía.”[1] 





[1] Otto Rene Castillo’s “Frente al balance, mañana.” Translated as“But it is beautiful to love the world through the eyes of those who have not yet been born.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

I've Only Just Begun


I’ve Only Just Begun

When I leave for the Philippines, I will bring back sweet and comforting thoughts of Australia. This country has been my home for the last five months or so, and it certainly has been mission fulfilled for me.

I must admit that when I got admitted to my scholarship at the University of Sydney, I was so sad just thinking of the length of time that I will be away from home. I may have travelled a lot before, but this was the longest time that I would be away from home, and it made me so sad and homesick even before I got on the plane to come here.

However, this sadness and this homesickness that I imagined  never happened when I came here - becauseI I was overwhelmed with so much warm welcomes from friends, relatives and people both from my here and my country. THEY have all made my stay here hospitable and comfortable beyond imagination. I was surrounded by relatives, and friends who shared their joys and laughter, their food and their red wine. I met new friends. I met a wonderful new family in the persons of Janice and Frank Gedra who gave me a home and treated me like their own daughter, to which I am forever grateful. I reconnected with family, and spent rewarding time catching up with them - time which would connect open circles in my life's journey. 


I am sure I will miss Australia - the place and the people I've connected with. When I go to my second semester in Sri Lanka, it might not be as relaxing, consoling and encouraging as being here. I will miss the almost weekly Filipino food at the church, at Granville, and at various different homes. I was never hungry here – both for physical food, spiritual food and emotional food. I will miss the overflowing redwine. I cannot also forget the experience of working as a house cleaner or a nanny at some points during my stay here and was able to gain first hand impressions of the thousands who toil in these kind of works. The experience has given me a deeper understanding of life abroad and how hard it is to survive just to earn some money either to send to our family, or to save for a better life in the Philippines.

My Master’s program has exposed me to new ideas that I can apply to my work as a lawyer and a human rights activist and to my everyday experience as a woman and an indigenous person. I will always go back to the Philippines to be a lawyer for the people, and, to the best that I can, to help the marginalized sectors of our society.

Life back home is not all that rosy. Well, not much has changed. Politicians remain the same – the same surnames run the country. From the President down to the barangay. Life, as it was 20 years ago, is not much different from today. More and more people roam the city streets in hunger and violence. Less and less people are able to gain employments. More professionals end up as call center agents. These, among so many reasons, are what drive many of us to choose the very difficult decision to leave our homeland for abroad, in our hopes for better lives because there seems to be no hope back home.

Those who had to bear a life away from loved ones remain the icons of hope, the beacons of inspiration, that one day all will be well in the Philippines. Your struggles in Australia reflect wondrous benefits for those whom you have asked to stay behind at home. The ukay-ukay, the remittances, the capital for both house and business, the alternative life of migration – these link Australia to the Philippines, and back.               
 
In this difficult world that we live in, let us continue to celebrate life, celebrate our culture. I thank you all for sharing your time and resources with me during these past five months. I would not have gone this far, with so many beautiful memories of Australia, without your companionship and generosity. I hope I too was able to impart some lessons in life to you, especially those whom I spent some time with. This is not goodbye, but, ‘til we meet again.

We’ve only just begun –
Before the risin' sun, we fly
So many roads to choose
We'll start out walkin' and learn to run
And yes, we've just begun 

And when the evening comes, we smile
So much of life ahead
We'll find a place where there's room to grow
And yes, we've just begun

(Mannja, Sydney, Australia, Dec. 2012)